It's Official

I have now sent in my 2 week notice at my work so that I can be a stay at home mom. It's kind of a crazy feeling. No more getting up to leave the house to go to work. No more accounting/monthly deadlines/vague work requests that I have to try to interpret and get right.

Now I just have figuring out a baby/hourly deadlines (you know, for things like feeding, diaper changing, and napping)/vague occasional crying with seemingly no cause to try to interpret and get right. But I can't wait.

People always say that they didn't know they could love someone so much as their baby. And I really do love him, but I have to say I love him about as much as I thought I would. But e difference is the complete and total responsibility that goes along with it. I'm the one he relies on (most of the time) just to stay alive. He can't feed himself, or go to the bathroom, or even move from one spot without my help and I think that is what makes the difference between this relationship and every other. His complete reliance really does make you have a crazy bond with him that makes you super protective.

I can't wait to try to figure it all out.

Moving on

So the madness has now stopped. No more pumping four times a day with tiny results. No more beating myself up four times a day (at least) because there must have been something I was doing wrong. I have now officially moved on to formula only and I am finally fine with it.

Also telling me I've made the right decision: the weaning process, that is, weaning the pump of course. I've heard it can be a process that takes kind of a while. Slowly tapering off, decreasing slowly to avoid engorgement which can be really painful. Me? I just stopped. Completely. No issues at all. Yeah, I wasn't quite making the production one would hope for.

And now I have more time with baby Leroy, more happy hours in the day, more sanity. I am so relieved I finally made the decision.

Now what?

So I love my little baby Leroy. But goodness, do the days just stretch out in front of me like a never ending void to fill...I have a pretty good routine for the morning segment, get up, feed baby, change clothes, activity mat time, me workout, go for a run/walk with the baby & Roscoe, then it's time for lunch...then...more activity mat? Some assisted sitting? He just can't do that many things yet, but I feel like he must be bored with this stuff. Also I'm trying not to put him inn his bouncy chair or swing too much because the doctor pointed out that the back of his head is flat...but he gets so pissed after a little bit of tummy time. Is there're some magical 2 month old baby activity that I don't know about that will occupy his attention and not contribute to a mis-shapen head?

On my way

So I recently found a great workout website: toneitup.com these two girls make workout videos for you tube, and I love the cost of free :). I've done a couple of the workouts so far and they are great, my abs are already sore. Hopefully I'll be in some cute summer dresses (or just my old clothes) before too long...

A fun new goal to work towards

So yesterday I was looking for a present and finally went to a little store around the corner from my house and OH MY GOD IT HAS THE CUTEST STUFF IN THERE. And it's not even expensive. It's closeout designer stuff and I wanted EVERYTHING in there. Sadly though, I'm still about 20 pounds heavier than I was pre-pregnancy, so here is my new goal for weight loss (buy everything in that store). And I'm really working on it. Leroy, Roscoe, and I go for walks every other day and I'm doing some workout videos on most of the other days too...but so far I'm still the same weight! So bitter. I'm definitely going to continue, since not only do I really want to be smaller, but I have a fantastic wedding to go to in about a month and I would really like to be smaller for that too...we'll see I guess.